Paper plate life.

Put down your paper plate
come to the table made
deep blue china
found on the table by the wine
so fine
it brings out flavor
like You bring out color in life
oh, i miss You so
the feel of forever
oh, that taste i know
it hurts to remember
unfortunately high
ironically dissatisfied
i miss You
i miss You
oh, i miss You so
the feel of forever
oh, that taste i know
it hurts to remember
i had a fleeting thought this morning
and i mentioned you today
it breaks my heart just to know You in part
and not to be with You where You are...

-Shane and Shane


I feel like I am dying inside. No, I feel like I AM dead inside. Yet there is a yearning for something so much better, something I've tasted before.

I have had the best, I have loved life, I have tasted freedom in Christ. I remember what that is like and it hurts.
Tears well in my eyes as I think about how much I miss Him. how much I need Him. how much I thought I didn't need Him.
I miss You so.

I have tried to push Him away, I have tried to satisfy myself, I have tried to prove that I can be something without Him. I can't. I am nothing without Him. I am empty.

I've been eating off a paper plate, drinking soda from a can. Meanwhile, there is a banquet table with fine china and wine waiting for me, as is the King.

I miss You.

Head to the banqueting table my friends. He is waiting with everything you need.